I often struggle with the title of this blog...."Overhaul. My year of Transition from Cluttered to Simple Living." What does that really mean? Did I really believe that it would only take a year to get my house in order? What kind of clutter am I talking about? What am I so dissatisfied with? What do I feel needs change. Why now?
When looking for a title for my kayak painting, my dad re-introduced me to a quote from "Ulysses".. by Alfred Lord Tennyson, written in 1833 and published in 1842. Ulysses longs to return to the sea. He is aging and he longs for more fulfillment... to make the best of the rest of his life.
...that which we are, we are;
One equal temper of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.
Like Ulysses, I long for more. My journey is a journey within. What is it I seek? What makes me happy? What makes me feel fulfilled? What causes me pain?
When my last child left home, I was faced with the questions, "What now" and "what lies ahead?" One half of my life was involved in mothering. A "mother" is how I defined myself. The void created by their absence cried out to be filled. With what? Heavens...I did not even know myself! How could I possibly know what would make me happy?
Over the past several years, I have started to discover those things that bring me great joy. What are they? Sunday night dinners with dad...phone calls from my kids....grandkids who snuggle in my arms...a paddle....a paint brush in my hand...a visit from a friend....a community of friends.
What is it I seek? Peace and simplicity. Peace and Simplicity.
How do I reach that place of peace..simplicity? I am learning. The less cluttered my home, the more peaceful it is.. The less contact I have with those who are easily offended and perpetually fault finding...the more peaceful my heart is. When I search my soul and strive to practice the Virtues, I am on the road to contentment and peace. When I strive to live in a world with as little impact as possible, I have found simplicity, and thereby I have found peace.
My journey is lifelong....as is yours. What is it that you are looking for?